Pairings: Lee/Duncan, Lee/Matt
Warnings/Notes: Slash, songfic, angst, sex
Disclaimer: Don't own any of them.
Once again I walk away
I slowly opened my eyes. I knew I was naked, and cold. The bedsheets barely covered my legs. I felt someone stirring next to me.Then it hit me. Duncan had left me, I'd asked Matt to come round and...He turned round and smiled at me. "Hey," he said happily, "I hope you slept well."
I turned away. "Did we..." I couldn't form the words.
"Have sex?" He asked, his voice calm as his fingers traced circles on my back. "Yeah, we did. It was amazing." I could tell he meant every word of what he said. He wasn't lying, didn't have to.
I couldn't look at him, at his smiling face. His arms wrapped around me in a tight embrace and I felt his warm naked body against mine. "Are you upset about Duncan?"
I nodded, slowly and whispered quietly, "Yes..."
He kissed my neck. "He was a fool to leave an angel like you. But I promise you I won't." He hands stroked my chest. I'll never leave you."
Reluctantly I rolled over and kissed him.
But if you asked me, you know that I'd stay
When I awoke again I managed to leave him, sleeping. The light on the answering machine blinked, indicating messages. I lightly pressed the button. "Message 1."
"Hey Lee." Simon's voice. "I hope you're alright. You do know I'm here if you wanna talk. I'll come by after lunch. See ya then."
I shook my head slowly. I didn't need more people here. "No more messages."
I sighed. I suppose part of me hoped Duncan would have tried to call. Tried to explain himself. I heard the buzzer and sluggishly shuffled to the door. Sure enough Simon was standing there, with bags of take away. "You look like hell."
"Thanks for the vote of confidence." I whispered, "Look Si, this isn't a good time...."
"I know and that's why I'm here." He managed to slide past me, into the living room. I sighed, closing the door and following him. "Already had visitors?" He asked, clearly seeing the remnants of last nights meal.
"Well...kinda..." I sat on the couch next to him.
"Looks like more then kinda." He looked me up and down. He pointed to my neck, he always did have an eye for detail. "And they left a mark."
I felt my neck and brushed over the bite mark Matt had given me. I bought my fingers to my face and notice that there was some blood. He'd pierced the skin.
His hand was on my shoulder. "You can tell me anything I promise I won't tell Duncan." I turned to face him. "Who was he?"
Before I could say a word Matt was in the doorway. "Hi Si, what are you doing here?"
"He's just bought some food." I blurted out. Matt smiled, seemingly satisfied with my answer.
"Well I'll leave you to it," he smirked, "I'll be in the shower babe." He blew me a kiss before going back through the door.
"Ahhh. So you two..."
"We're not together," I sighed, "I just wish I could let him know that." I turned unable to hold his gaze. "Have you heard from him?"
"Duncan?" I nodded. "He's with Ant. Has been since yesterday. We didn't get a chance to really talk." He paused for a moment. "He did seem really upset about it."
I didn't know what to say. I just felt numb. "Do you think I should see him?"
He nodded. "That might be the best thing for you to do." I opened my mouth to speak but he cut me off. "I don't think you should tell him about this." He indicated my neck. "At least, not for a while."
I nodded in understanding as I began eating the food he'd bought. "I'll go after we've eaten then."
Simon smiled. "Good. Cause I hate you two not being happy."
If we put out the sun and stopped it from shining
After we ate Si left, wishing me luck. I took a deep breath before heading into the bathroom. It was filled with steam and the sound of running water. "Lee babe, is that you?"
"Yeah," I replied, slowly, "I need to talk to you about..."
"Why don't you come in here with me?" An arm reached out and pulled me towards him. "Ever had sex in a shower?" he asked lustfully, sticking his head out of the curtain. Water splashed around his face.
"Yeah, several times but.." He leaned forward and kissed me, silencing my words. I couldn't resist, I tried but failed. I knew deep down that this was wrong, that I loved Duncan, that I should stop. But as he pulled me in I didn't want to. His kisses were sweet, his hands caressing, teasing me. He held me close, like I was precious. The same way Duncan held me. Maybe that made it hard to resist, or explain why my body reacted like it did. I groaned as he pressed into me. As he enterred me, and I seen the ecstasy in his eyes, all I could think of was how good he felt. He groaned and I closed my eyes, wishing it was Duncan exploding inside me. He slid out and touched me gently, slowly bringing me to completion.
I sighed as I leaned against the wall, panting slightly. I looked him in the eyes through the water. His arms slid around me and we dropped to the floor. "Matt..." I whispered to him. "I need to go..."
He looked at me, some of his wet hair flopped over his forehead. "Why, where are you goin?"
I thought for a moment, trying to come up with a believeable excuse. "Meeting, with the studio. Simon reminded me."
Matt smiled and nodded in understanding. "Ok, sorry if I made you late."
"No, you didn't." I smiled thinly. "Stay here, if you want. I'll leave so keys on table for you." I kissed him lightly, I didn't have the heart to tell him it was over, well at least until I was sure I had a future with Duncan.
I stepped out the shower and then went to get some clothes.
We both know, We still couldn't be anymore in the dark
I driven for about an hour in an attempt to calm my nerves. Eventually I parked outside our appartment and stepped out of the car. I took a deep breath before heading up the stairs. I reached in my pocket and dug out my set of keys, sorting through them to find the right key. Reluctantly I put it in and slowly turned it in the lock. I silently entered and quietly opened the door. My mouth widened at what I saw.
Ooh there's no flashlight, There's no insight
Duncan was lying on the couch, naked...
As hard as we try
...with his head on Antony's bare hairy chest.
Ooh we keep running round in circles
His hand running through Duncan's hair, as Duncan sighed happily. They hadn't heard me, so I turned away as Duncan closed his eyes. I shut the door carefully and ran down the stairs.
Time after time
Ant turned his head, facing the door. He smirked and continued to caress Duncan.