Tonight's wasn't the same, yet I wish with every bone of my body it had been.
Never thought I'd say that.
This time made me cry, fucking cry.
Nan's in hospital. I don't know the exact details, but it started Sataurday. She got worse, she wouldn't let any one touch her and she had to go in an ambulence.
Now she won't be coming back home, they're going to keep her in the hospital/nursing home indefinately.
My uncle, bastard that he is, didn't want mum telling me at all.
When I get back, they're taking me to see her, but I'm not sure I'll be able to stand it.
I don't know if I'd have handled this any better if I was there, but part of me wishes I was.
Now it's only a matter of time before she'll be gone.
I'm not sure which hurts the most.